FIC SEARCH, HELP NEEDED

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hi fellow Bottom Draco fans, i need help finding a specific fic that i'm too stupid not to save at that time and now i can't find it and google has failed me for a few months i'm trying to find it by myself. and i hope you all can help me here. so here goes the story...

the fic is after war, draco and harry have a secret relationship. pansy keeps reminding Draco not too involved or fall in love with harry because in the end harry will hurt draco. draco didn't care, he was pretty sure that harry is in love with him eventhough their relationship hidden from the wizarding world and even from harry's friend. one day when draco get back from work harry asked him to break up because he wants a family ( wife and kids and the lovey dovey image of marriage and families) which draco can't give. the break up kills draco and he fell into depression and alcohol (or some kind of potion) addiction. in the end he was sent to st. Mungos and rehabilitation place ( i think Blaise recommend the place). and i think hermione treated draco for a short time before he goes to rehab place. and at the same time Ginny (who is already married to Harry were in st. Mungos giving birth to their first child).

draco finally recovered from the addiction, i remember there's a scene where he commented about the rehab's trolley cart and he confessed to the mind healer that he is afraid to go out of the rehab place. after he was released draco went all over the world (tokyo and another place to do work and leave pansy and blaise). after a few years ( i think it's a few years, the story timeline is quite long, but it's actually a one shot if i'm not mistaken) draco is back to england and met a guy (muggle) in his apartment and then draco help the new guy moved in to the apartment. they became friends, the guy is a muggle and a writer. when the relationship starts to become more draco almost had a breakdown and called his long time healer from the rehab. eventually they become lover and draco confessed that he is a wizard, which his muggle lover feels unfazed of because he has a cousin (or a family) that is also a wizard. i remember he only commented "i knew you were an angel baby". (at some time of their relationship pansy and blaise met the muggle guy because they want to know who draco with and make sure that draco isn't get hurt again).

in the end the story POV switch to harry. it seems that the lovely marriage that he wants so much turns out to be a dull marriage (except for having kids). he feels empty inside. the last scene is when harry go to pick albus to his friend's house. and what a shocked it is, turns out the father of albus's friend is draco. draco who is married to his muggle lover and had kids ( i think it wasn't mention as an mpreg fic. draco who is married and seems happy. after harry is home he cried, i think he regretted hurting draco and not brave enough to keep having relationship with draco. yes, it's not a happy ending fic (at least for harry part) i remembered feeling satisfied because harry is hurt (talk about karma!! yay).

so... anybody know and remember this story?? i'd really love to read it again and recommend it to my friend.


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